...Nice memory on Lum Mun Zhak U16...

Has been a fucking long time not blogging at all...
First of all, I would like to share something of what I experienced on Lum Mun Zhak U16 Cup...
I was bringing a target towards there...
Is to promote my MABA license to Grade B...
but what's the result ??? Just depends on my performance... =)
Few days past...
A coach who I used to scare her came talking to my friend,
gave a compliment on me...
Though I was acting like never hear it,
but that's really excited !!!
Keep it up......

8 matches in 9 days.....
I did a very good job in 3 games, just self-thinking.
Heard some good news about having such a high opportunity promote to Grade B
And that's what I aim...
Completely satisfied my performance in such few days...
Anyway, the final result has to wait for two weeks after the tournament...

Spend the money like water flowing...
Expenses more than Earns...
Greeting much of friends who came from the other states...
And there is one thing that I couldn't unable to mention......
I made a lots friends over there...!!!
All of them came from each state of Malaysia...=)

Lots of stuff want to share but unable to think it in a sudden...
I learned so much on how to officiate a game,
How to communicate with partner during a game,
How to eyes contact with partners,
How to cover partners,
How to penetration,
What is called mechanic...=)
And I had an exciting gather with them at all...
Seriously, that's really my unforgettable memories...
Hope to see you guys in the coming U18 ...
Basketball...That's Fun =)
"We are Basketball"
Once again, Thanks you all...
Really appreciate !!!

...Ice-Cream...

Something was like being unusual that i brought my brother along to join my cs buddies for an exciting war game !!!
The overall "performance" wasn't out of expectation, he did well.
How exciting it was? Currently my throat is sore throating afterwards.
Think about what should I spend my holiday during this fucking boring days.
I have been preparing the ingredient of making an ice-cream but still lacking of something.
Why Male are not allowed to make ice cream for themselves?
I'm the exemption =)
Actually I'm quite craving to finish all that stuff of making that.
Anyway, just give me some more days, i will be starting my works on next week.

...Just to experience something news =) ...

Some feelings have to be expressed from my heart...
First of all, Declaration has to be made over here.
I am not addicting on gamble,
Experience is a compulsory way for all teenager have to be passing by.
I just want to try out and see how's my analysis...
And there are RM500 had not been touched for a few days even months.
If it was not going to be spent, why just putting there without doing anything?
There is no reason for me to do nothing,
The first thing while I looking at it, I just want it to be more.
No matter how's the risk, how's the probability, how's the adventure that i made,
And there is one thing I want to write here is ...
I learned something......=)

Buying more, probability for winning will be less.
Since the expected profit E(x) will be number of buying x amount of betting x probability of winning.
10 x RM50 x 0.5 = RM250
2 x RM50 x 0.5 = RM50
Spotted the difference?

Just believe in your intuition for which you bought.
Though the probability of all loses will be (0.5)^n
That's a less chances for you to encounter it.
What about all the intuition being inaccurate?
That's what you have to analysis and build up an idea on your mind AFTER you paid the big amount of loses.

Nothing will make you become serious to face to the fact besides real money.
Ya, that's really real.
For me, I just want to experience something.
Please, believe yourself.
And rely on yourself.

...3 months after, I see you again =) ...

Have not been seeing you for 3 and a half months...
Today finally, my dream came true...
You are still who you are.
Still the same and not talking with each other at the beginning.
Since I know that was not suppose to be such like this.
Motivation always come from what you are thinking, what you want.
Jie Qin birthday for the 1st round, her house for the 2nd round.

Something I must mention about is......
What the coincidence that both of us were wearing the same colour shirt.
Not even this, we were still ordering the same drinks which is Honey Milk...
Fate Barrier?
No, that's not like my previous post...

Actually I'm still clearing about what she has used to and what she scared.
Today's feeling really nice.
Thanks !

And I know what I need...
I need you...

Since I can't think of any unrealistic.
The least I have to do for you is...
I should finish my degree......



Nothing can change my love for you
Because of you, I have no more feeling on other girls
Goh Shenning, I love you, but you loved other....... .


but now I'm keep enduring those suffer feeling between ......
sorry........
sorry........
sorry........

...I miss you... =)

I miss her, very much, really...
Since I have not been seeing her for nearly 4 months...
Feel like we are having a fate barrier.
We are studying at a same block.
How could her studying times are totally different with mine?
The only one different is just same block but different floor.
Suddenly feel like going to find out the probability about seeing her.
Why ?

Please, give me a chance.
Is just to see you for 1 second...=)
I miss you...

...Satisfaction reaches the peak... =)

RM100,000 capital for playing the OSK investment game.
RM6.000 been earned ...
If it was real, how nice it was actually......
Seems like earned a lot, but that's just 6% premium of my capital...which is called "suck" =)
Just a game...=)

Linear Algebra assignment questions are totally crazy when the first time looking at it.
There are nearly spending for 5 hours to work it out.
Once finished, the satisfaction is completely reaching the peak !!!
Before doing this, I was thinking like how I was going to work it out, that's much difficult questions but challenging =)
It helps me a lot as built up a critical thinking when I was doing the question.
Logical thinking quite useful in Linear Algebra,
But, How's the difficulty of Linear?



That's it.
Just Question 3,10 and 14...
Seriously, That's the hardest mathematical questions that I ever seen ...really...
You are not asked to work out a matrices equation or vectors equation or some more,
You are asked to form a matrices equation by using the information which are given in the question in a very complex way...
The main is to examine how's you going to construct a mind map in your mind and form a proper equation in either vector form or matrices form.
Cause Once formed it correctly in either one format, eventually you will be solving out the answer correctly if you were not mistaken.
MA220, really not that easy to understand.
Keep reminding "Not to underestimate everything regardless how does it look like"

...Grateful...

Actually I'm very grateful to one of my friend...
Really thanks for hitting me down, down, down...
To inspire me that what I need, who do I think, what's the problems are, what do I lack...
I have not been getting this kind of feeling for a long long time...
But, actually the feeling is like this.
Thanks for giving me to get back that feel that I have not been feeling it for a long time.
I'm not blaming you, just really want to thank you =)
Be optimistic...

Once again,
I keep reminding myself not to think of it.
But, that's hard.

The people who I think of you firstly when I was facing the problems is ...
I laugh, why is he???
It's okay, he may well can lend me a hand.

I dreamed QiQi just now...
Why she appeared in my dreamland?
When she left me, I couldn't find out any bad reason for her to do that.
She is really great.
Or she is the most optimistic girl that I ever met...=)

Convert the sadness into pushing force...
Shift concentration to other way...
I'm not female, I need not to rely on anyone.
I'm relying on myself ...

...1st sem result revealed...

As long as I studying nearly 4 months in my 1st sem ...
The result has finally come out on Myrpide...
When I looking at my result,
That was totally out of my aim...
A (90-100)
A- (85-89)
B+ (80-84)
B (75-79)
B- (70-74)

I'm wondering why our ADP department set up the grade with so high...
But, it's okay.
........................................
Calculus I - A
Actuarial Statistic - B+
Accounting I - B+
Computer Science - B-

CGPA is 3.5
but It is a big different from comparing with co-up requirement, 3.7......
Fine, I just do back as usual...
Not bearing a high hope for getting co-up anymore......
just take back the regular program if it was not necessary...

MA220 + EC102 = RM2,900......
Why begitu mahal?
Catch up study bah, sigh...

...Recently...

What is linear algebra?
It's one of the subjects that I have to enroll for my coming semester......
The other 1 will be Macroeconomic...
But there is Freshman English available also...
That's a basic requirement for those students who going to study abroad to Drake University,US.
Well, that's just a optional subject, thinking if should take it or what else...

MA 220, EC102...
Studying days will be from Monday to Thursday everyday
Short sem, will be more focus on the syllabus...sigh...

And, Today is the result releasing date...
FUCK, craving to know my result but I couldn't log in to the website
What a troublesome thing has to work on,
Back school with bringing along with my ID,
Show to the registry and ask for the password in order to know self-result.

Feel like IF there is no mathematical subject in the new sem,
I almost certainly have no mood to concentrate at all...
Cause I'm taking actuarial science,
will be very focus on Math...
That's why I take it =)

And there is another way that I have to mention about is......
I have not been playing this kind of activity for 4 years almost,
wow, you guys are calling all of our friend to join the war game later !!!
Totally feel so excited...!!!
No matter how much I spend,
That's worth to be spending =)

I.C.B group,
Sunday morning will be playing ball NAYC .
Playing ball with you guys quite funny
Laugh is always be around,
much more than concentration on playing the ball...
Maybe that's one of the way that how we're expressing our emotion xD

Have been 3 month losing contact......
My heart is bleeding......
Whenever I'm thinking of this,
Whenever I sad...

...Reunion with secondary classmates...

What a sudden...
Reunion with my secondary schoolmates in different locations !
Totally enjoyed the moment that we met all up !
The feeling was quickly melted into peak especially the beer time.
What the fuck,
Thought like everybody feels like guilty to me
Keep fining me to drink one, two , even three cup!
Ya, is OverTime .
The size of the cup is well-known =)

If I keep drunk over there.
I could go somebody house for overnight cause I COMPLETELY unable to drive
but that's girl's house, and she is the only one people in her house tonight.
She accept my overnight but I couldn't pass my guilty conscience.
I endured my drunk and said it's ok,
I'm able to drive, that's not driving me drunk =)

The photos were become invisible in my eye when I was looking for it.
but when I thought clearly , that's just covered by my drunk.
There is always exist in fact.
I hope it can be disappeared...but...

Hopefully, everything =can be going well =)